I believe it comes from the fact that I only talk to a few people on a regular basis; those people are my roommates and myself. Yeah, huge list I know. I have such a busy schedule and because I am trying really hard stay on top of things I am becoming asocial.
It doesn't help that when I do talk to people I often say "the wrong thing" or something rude. Not that I am overly rude, at least I hope not, but living in a community you learn that people are stupid and you are the worst.
Life is full of lessons and it seems that this year is one for learning them all, in my case. I don't want to worry but I can't help but think that this year is going to be quite hectic, nerve racking, stretching and trying. Not only because I have a heavy workload, or that I have TA work but because I am a difficult person to get along with. I know people have said otherwise, but their faces say the opposite of what they mean.
I pray that this year goes swiftly, smoothly and that I do not upset my roommates too much. There are many things I should change about myself, but they don't seem to be coming quickly.
